Day 18…Evolving Blog Titles and Not Waiting For Comments

{Note: Dear reader, this is a post that is part of my blog ‘history’, if you will.  I wrote this before All Manner of Inspiration was launched.  I know I should probably delete it, but I can’t delete my small little writing history, meager as it be…}

I know it looks like I’ve been blogging for awhile. If you look back at my previous posts, they date back as far as 2008….

But the purpose for my blog has most definitely evolved and changed…in my mind at least.

In the past few years, the blog world has literally exploded, and for many people it is now their business and livelihood.   People have readerships of hundreds of thousands, ads running on their sidebars by other bloggers, giveaways, linky parties…it’s like a whole new world!
I first signed up for the blogland adventure to tell my story of travelling to China while I was performing in a tour of the musical “The Sound of Music” as a nun – among other characters.   This blog’s first title was  “Confessions of A Protestant Nun” – probably my most witty title I have to admit.   I think it was a time I did some of my most honest writing in this place…I didn’t try to edit, filter,  or think of any certain reader or audience.  I simply told my story and posted pics of my adventures…Looking back, it was such a wonderful time -even if sometimes it didnt feel that way.  I was free to go anywhere, and and for the most part, I did…as far as the other side of the world…

However, all good things must come to an end, and when the economy tanked in a major way late that summer, I found myself back in Dallas (where all my belongings were stored in a small storage unit) – jobless and looking for a place to live.  Through God’s gracious provision and the kindness of church community and new friends, I set myself up in a home with new roommates, and found myself working at a vet clinic, learning to be a vet tech.  It was an incredible change in my life, and I was suddenly out of anything that resembled a familiar setting.   Though I had worked with animals previously in training situations, I had never worked in a clinical environment.  Looking back, it was also an amazing learning experience and God ordained journey.   At the time I was terrified and felt ridiculously misplaced as I went through culture shock of coming back home to American living after being in a bubble of eastern culture.  Once again, I coped by writing, and changed the blog title to “From Pearls to Scrubs”…  I didn’t care whether anyone read it (and I don’t know if anyone really even did), but I poured out my heart and soul and feelings as I got used to a life I didn’t expect to return to.     Then life began to happen, as it so often does, and I began to experience some difficulties with my health and personal relationships…I fled the presence of my blog, and continued writing only in my journal.  In a short span of 2 years, so much has transpired…

I’ve suddenly found myself in 2011 living in another city (well, technically – does Fort Worth from Dallas count?), married to an incredible man when I had truly thought I would remain single, and displaced from my gypsy, nomadic life.   I’ve settled in a house in the suburbs, ready to craft a new life and seek the plan and purpose of my days by seeking God and learning to reinvent myself.  Though there are opportunities to perform in the area, they are few and far between, and when they happen, they span a few weeks or perhaps a month – not the long contract of 6 to 8 months to 1 to 2 years as I’d experienced before touring on the road…
I’ve suddenly found myself longing to return to my writing as I’ve done before…but now it’s a new type of world on the internet, and blogs are a dime a dozen.  I also find myself in – how shall I say – not perhaps as exciting circumstances as before.   Though I am probably happier than I’ve ever been, writing about the journey before me suddenly seems trite, simple and small…   I am reminded everyday by God and my loved ones that  is not the truth, and the life I’ve been given is a pure gift, I just start to wonder as I write… who if anyone, reads this little piece of blog-land?…  Am I imparting grace and encouragement to others?  Am I helping someone make sense of their journey and mess?
Is anybody out there??
Really??

I’m embarrassed to say I’ve gotten caught up in  trying to write to get a response, or comment…when that should be the last thing on my little writing mind…  Every piece of my journey has led me to this moment, and the grace in my everyday life is a reminder…
whether in China, on the stage, or just on the treadmill – it’s all a gift from God, and an interesting, living breathing story…

I happened upon a blog yesterday that sent me such a beautiful message that I didn’t think I needed to read, but really, I most truly did…Whether I’m blogging about actively waiting, or flying over Siberia, every moment is gift a life that’s rich and full and blessed by God…

Whenever I think no one’s reading, or that I wished someone was commenting on my words, I will read the passage below once again, smile, rest in contentment, and stay the course…

I used to think that the purpose of linking up with another blog was so that I could receive something — more comments, more followers, higher stats. But God has shown me, instead, that linking up is an opportunity to give first. When I link my post, I want to people to be encouraged, to know that they aren’t the only ones is a bad place or a good place or a whatever place. I want my posts to be a reflection of what God is doing in my life — hard or easy. It is my way of saying, “Here I am. Walk with me.” It’s me extending a hand, reaching out. One never knows the life that can be changed with His Holy Spirit speaking through these keyboards. We cannot limit our voice or limit where our voice may be heard just because of the number of comments we have received. Even if only one person reads your post, that one person could be forever changed.    

 –Jen @ http://www.findingheaventoday.blogspot.com/

Thanks for the beautiful reminder Jen…there’s alot more to be experienced in the Active Waiting  process…might you continue to come along with me on the journey?  And  please read and browse this blog without feeling like you have to comment   But I by no means want this post to scare you away from sharing your thoughts with me if you are so inclined!  I’m a sociable creature by nature, and would love to hear about your story.  Either way, I’m so glad you found your way here today…thanks for stopping by!

This is day 18 in a series of posts…look to the right sidebar to catch ones you’ve missed.


Biblically, waiting is not just something we have to do until we get what we want. Waiting is part of the process of becoming what God wants us to be. – John Ortberg

One comment on “Day 18…Evolving Blog Titles and Not Waiting For Comments

  1. love your honesty here…this blog world is a strange place…I too have my heart revealed and hope changed for the better for being here…
    I am very uncomfortable blogging…a non writer…writing to cyberspace…seems strange…but God does ask some strange things of us…
    May we really write for an audience of ONE!! the one we pour our hearts out to on paper…
    Blessings on your journey back here…

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