Day 20…When Waiting Yields More Than You Dreamed…

 One day, you’ll meet someone who will make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.    
photo by Jaime Prewitt

One area of my life where I have felt like an expert in waiting has been my love life.  For many years, I had a deeply rooted and  misplaced identity in finding a husband/soulmate/life partner as my deepest and most important desire…Of course, I wouldn’t tell anyone that was the case.  For a long time, I pretended like my relationship with God was the most important thing…and while I always wanted it to be, if I was honest, finding my husband was what I wanted more than anything.  While I have always known that falling in love and marrying is a beautiful and wonderful gift from God, my desire for it became distorted, all consuming, and carefully veiled, lest someone discover that I wanted it so much more than I would admit.  Unfortunately, more than once God gave me incredible opportunities in my career and circumstances, and I turned them away in lieu of a relationship that most always didn’t work out for one reason or another.

 I am not proud of this fact, but it is the truth.  I had to spend many years wrestling with God (a la ‘Jacob-style in the Bible) to come to a place of peace and healing.  After many, many years, I finally understood that falling in love is an amazing and incredible thing, but it is not the only thing.  It sounds like a cliche, but the moment I was finally at peace with my relationship with God being my focus and joy……


I’ll be talking more in future posts about my incredible husband and our story that was worth every single second  of waiting – for both of us. 

Waiting For YouKindly click the arrow for this post’s soundtrack. (“Waiting For You” by Matthew West)
I have found the one whom my soul loves
– Song of Solomon 3:4
photo: Jen Sosa
{This is day 20 in a series of posts – “31 Days of Active Waiting”}

4 comments on “Day 20…When Waiting Yields More Than You Dreamed…

  1. I can relate to this: just as I gave up on guys, I started dating the man who is now my husband. And he didn’t fulfill every need I had like I thought he would.

    And then he told me about Jesus…and He filled in all those places. Love is most definitely a three-strong cord!

    Came here from the MMD link-up; so glad you found your guy (and peace) in the right time!

    1. Thanks so much for stopping by the blog Michelle! 🙂 What a wonderful redemptive story you have in your romance! 🙂 Thanks again for sharing! 🙂

  2. Those photos are gorgeous!

    I’ve spent all day today with family and friends as we prepare to celebrate my dear friend’s wedding tomorrow, and I can’t tell you how many times we’ve discussed the idea at the heart of this quote: “One day, you’ll meet someone who will make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.”


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