I haven’t meant to be such a sporadic blogger lately, truly I haven’t. Its honestly a little bit surprising to me, because I’ve been writing rather regularly in this particular season, and I seem to have more time on my hands than usual.
Yet, despite all that, with the exception of a few monthly linkups, I’ve been rather quiet around here.
Part of this coming week’s plans involve me tying up some loose ends with completing my undergraduate degree. I’ll be learning a short monologue from the beautiful play Shadowlands (about CS Lewis & his wife Joy), and refining some musical theatre songs to finish an incomplete voice final from last semester. That will be fun, and I’m looking forward to it.
But that’s not what I want to talk about in this post.
My normally extroverted self has felt the need as of late for some serious online quiet.
My favorite writer/blogger Sarah Bessey has talked about making room for the white space and the light to break through, and I think that’s where I’m at. My Sweet Man and I have been in a massive state of limbo for months in terms of location and where to plant roots. That’s another long story for another day, but I can finally admit out loud, despite the blessings we have been given, it has made me tired and weary. Forgive my cryptic words about the matter, but all I really need to say is, for a myriad of reasons, I’m seeking out the quiet.
I feel like I need some time to really write. I want to write more than a list of words I feel like will be safe and well received. I’ve been journaling less and less these days, and I think it’s starting to affect my blog writing. I need to write with candor and sometimes gritty veracity in my journal, and then in turn write words that have truth and honesty for this blog. I’m still working on my foodie posts and my creative resource posts along with curating interviews –those passions are unchanged. But I’ve come to the realization I need a little respite, and I need more inspiration these days than I can find or give online.
This is by no means one of those I’m-having-a-crisis posts, or I-need-time-to-write-my-bestselling-book posts–and believe me, when I encounter a blogger who writes one of those, my heart is with them. But I mean to be clear about what I need right now.
A little bit of room to breathe and reflect.
I promise to be back here on the blog as early as this weekend, or perhaps a few days from now, or maybe I won’t surface for a few weeks–I really can’t say. I may pop in with an occasional pic or quote or playlist, but other than that–consider me a reader in the online world more than a writer…just for a little while.
Thanks so much for grace and peace, friends.
See ya soon.